Dear Kismet

Dear Kismet,

​How do I know when it's time to quit my job? I'm a successful VP with opportunities for growth ahead of me. My bank account is full but I feel empty inside. Everyone around me assumes I'm having an amazing time because I can buy whatever I want. Everything except my happiness. I dream about quitting my job and just taking some time for myself. Is that selfish? 

Thanks for your guidance. 
Cindy L, 6D
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Dear Cindy,
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You have a responsibility to be 'selfish’. In card terms, your Saturn card is the Ace Hearts. Your long-term developmental task is to become more attentive to your inner child, to become self aware, to become more 'self-ish'.

Your personality blueprint as the Six of Diamonds involves the desire to be fair to everyone, to see others' perspectives, and possibly to care-take their feelings. I am glad you are in touch with your desire to quit.  

You have several Fives and Sixes in your yearly spread this year. Fives indicate the desire for change and Sixes indicate destiny. So this change you feel like you want to make is coming at a time when you are aligning with your destiny.

Keep in mind, change is a process. Allow this to take some time. One reason this is difficult is that your old programming is putting the needs of others ahead of your own. Actually,

you are assuming that you know what their needs are. Maybe they 'need' you to quit!

A sense of crisis arises when our authentic needs begin to come into conflict with the needs of our old program. Old program (you edit to fit yourself): "To be successful, I must make $$____. I must achieve _______.  I need to be busy and productive. I need a boss to tell me what to do, etc." Authentic needs: "I need to be creative. I need more self-care time. I have a dream of opening my own yoga studio. I need to be my own boss. My deeper values are around time with friends and family, etc."

Perhaps you are care-taking your own old program. This program exists for the purpose of your survival. In that program is the definition of success, worthiness, and responsibility. You need to ask yourself, "How am I redefining success? What actually makes me worthy? What am I actually responsible for?"  Your old program has an alarm system built in to let you know when you are acting outside the protocols. It is only trying to take care of you. Thank it, and rewire it!

Make a list of the needs and desires that this job fulfills for you. This may have changed over time. But pay attention to what is working for you. We are building a practical bridge for your walk to freedom. Then write down what you would rather be doing, and figure out how each of these needs will be fulfilled by your new situation.
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Also make a list of what doesn't work for you at the present job, and how you will be able to dump these things in the new situation. If the dream or plan for the future is lacking in details, don't worry. They will come in time. Stay with what you do know, especially how you want to feel in your new enterprise, and at the end of the day.

Love,

Kismet